stress...

OMG i really missed my home and my bed and clean water for bath and so on and so fort....OMG....how terrible its make me feel actually..when your stripped off all the luxuries and comfort that you took for granted everyday...now after 4 days of without all those luxuries i really missed...the worst was today when we dont have any clean water for bath even to brush lour teeths...the heavy rain caused the river to be very murky and very dirty....i have to wait for several hours just to take a bath and brush my teeth...i can survive without electricity but without water "clean" water to be exact, i dont know how many hours i can last...

Tomorrow gonna be my second last day of this mobile court visit, and to my surprise i cant wait for it to end...huhu...sounds very spoiled aite...i found it very hard to endure this situation because i am still down with fever....hari nie ok sket...dah kurang....the worst was last sunday and monday....my body temp was sky rocking....nasib baik demam dah kebah...i cant wait for fasting month and berpuasa di rumah...yippeeee...

any way to all my muslim friends "selamat berpuasa"...

office politics..

i am so happy i was posted at a small station..i hate office politics..all the fighting backstabbing and masam muka towards each others and tak bertegur...how to work in such an environment...maybe sometime i sound naive but yet..i like to have positive impression towards others..i always presume that everyhting is ok and wonderful...but the fact that memang macam hampeh...semua sebab office politics and sikap berpuak-puak...semua ada favourite boss memasing...penat laa ini macam...ayo yo...

i ve been there before, i live through one and wish not to go through another..penat dowh...bosan nak layan and malas nak face all the backstabbing and bad mouthing each others...any way hope that i will not be posted anywhere...i love where i am stationed rite now...huhu...

why whyyyy....

last night i went for a dinner with a friend of mine...she's in the same line as i am but with more extra workloads...i haven't seen her for quite sometime, ermm i think for almost 5 months and we're in the same batch when we joined service...

she was when the first time i met her a very sweet, bubbly and jovial person..she's very humorous and lovely, her smile can light up a room and her laugh will just cheer you up...she's perfect the way she is..but the person i met last night was mile away from who she used to be before...

she change a lot....she still smile but less, she still laugh but less and little jokes from her...all i can see was totally different person...she opens up and we talk about whats going on...its the stress of works and the office politics...which really take a toll on her...i really miss the "old" her who she used to be....funny, jovial and someone with millions of beautiful personality in her....i totally understand what she's goin through right now because i was there before but the most important don't let it get inside you, be in control....we really miss the person who you used to be.....

ekspedisi naik gunung...

ok target aku ngan my new friends adalah intuk menawan semua puncak gunung di borneo...dan permulaannya adalah hujung minggu nie..nak mula ngan gunung santubong...heh...macam larat kan..tapi takpe permulaan la katakan...so i am excited...dah lama tak wat outdoor activities nie...dah work out kat gym bagai nak rak...so wish me luck guys, with my new mission nie...