new experience..

ermm dah lama betul tak update ruangan maya nie...oraite nothing much happens in my life lately except work and work and work.....broke up and end up being single again...yet i tried to max all my time with work trying hard to deviate my feelings from thinking of the sad ending..

the fact that i dont have anyone to pur my heart to whenever i angry or clouded with problems...yet the fact of being alone again really freaks me off...ermm guess i meant to be alone kut...now focus and focus thats the main thing..work comes first since i am alone in sri aman..my family are hundred of KM away...

but me being me, since i was little i dont really share any of my problems with anyone..especially personal problems..i am a sceptic its hard for me to trust someone in a split second it even took year for me to do so...certain problem which is not that personal for me i might share it but only to certain people tho...

enuf about that, last tuesday i was appointed as the chairman of the Federal Building board for Sri Aman division...another responsibility which i have to handle in the midst of other thousand of other thing to be finished and done...despite having a very demanding bossess which dont tolerate incompetencies...yet i was given another out of work repsonsibility...*sigh*...first thing first clean all the mess created..sigh...baik aku jadi cleaner macam..mana2 aku pergi asyik nak clean after someone else's mess je ni...*sigh* again...

my first thought ever of being a magistrate and joint as a civil servant....more time to myself and more time to take of my health and my family as well...and yet i spent most of the time in the office but better than before i guess...

being the youngest among most of senior civil servant..urghh it is challenging...they keep stressing the fact that they are more senior...and ur not...but please listen if its wrong and still wrong...i am here to correct whats wrong...well yes you have 10 or 20 years experience of doing the said thing, but bear in mind the law keep changing and developing...and your experience based on something which is wrong from the very beginning and do you expect that i will keep quiet about it...hell no...if you wanna drag lme into puddle of shit hell i wont, i dont want to drag into legal mess later on...

yet all of this are new experience for me...slogan keramat *BUAT KERJA* hahahaha...